talk the talk

there is a gap, this huge gap between me and the people...its like, they know things,things about me, things i am suppose to know about first. but i am always the last to know or not even know about it. if u wanna talk about me, dont talk infront of me as if i am stupid.

sometimes i wonder if its really for me, or i am just starting to doubt myself again.

i need my safe place back.

is it time for me to let go and move on from where i am now? but where will i go from there?