blow the candles

lillian asked me this

"so what are you going to do today?"

she meant on the last day as a teen.

i thought about it, and i couldnt get an answer
i usually cared about stuff like this, about getting older, but now, it all seems normal to me - growing up that is.

people asked me what i want for my birthday

i used to have this long list of stuff that i wanted.
but this year, i cant write down anything on to that list.

what i really want? i think what i really want is to jump.
jump off anything and just free fall my way down.
i wanna fly.



PS: if you want to get me something, i am lacking something right now. i need a pretty, nice, preferably flowery and colourful, HUGE travelling size BAG. not luggage, not a hand carry bag. but a bag that i can use to travel or just going out. thanks ya.