step and go

happy birthday su zanne
go to sleep.
i would like to dedicate this post to my dear matsujun lover.

haha...
i have to type this really slowly and softly cos mj and mother is sleeping in the other side of the room.
dont wanna wake them up.
haha...mj was talking in her sleep again...XD

what am i doing up so late?
downloading songs and it is taking forever to finish.
yes, i download songs.
so i decided to wish su zanne and post it up for the whole world to see.

damn. saturday's plan to celebrate both their birthday was just ruined by mj's party with her friends and dinner at some unknown place and mother's insecurities of me driving at night.
she still doesnt let me drive anywhere except chauffeuring mj around from my house to her ballet school in taipan everyday.
i can drive with my eyes close.
i think if she had a choice, she wouldnt even let me drive to college.
she even have to ask me whether she should drive to church.
i sometimes let her drive cos i am too tired, but its just the way she asks me. its like she doesnt trust me.
all this happen ever since the accident.
hello, its not my fault that i was knock by that freaking idiot.
and like mother said herself many times "its KL. you are bound to get into an accident sooner or later."
i even have to drive at 50 - 60 (on highways) cos she thinks i am going to fast.
when i reach 70, i can sense her staring at me looking if i can drive or not.
what am i to do.... i guess i just have to live with it till she sees someone else does the same thing and then only let me do it.