not in the mood to talk

some of you might know why but some of you doesnt
its ok. you dont have to know
and i dont feel like talking about it anyway

february was suppose to be the best month for me
seeing that it is the last month of freedom for me before i start life
and because i was born in february.

recently, especially today, i've been feeling sad and useless
gosh. people have to stop yelling at me.
i know i am doing thing wrong and i am trying my best to fix it
but stop discouraging me for something i dont know how to do in the first place

to top it off, the energized water that is suppose to help me is making me sick.
mother says its cleaning all my toxic from my body so it makes me sleepy all the time
and it gives me headaches and makes me wanna throw up all the time.
i am starting to feel like an anorexic person.
every time i see food i feel like puking and i havent have an appetite for anything since last friday.

i hope ALL this ends soon
i cannot take it anymore